new things learned, few firsts and some thoughts...(a verly long post!)
0 comments by yanex at 6:51 AMcongratulations to all my dear friends who passed the exams:
Amera Marsangca! way to go bestfriend!
Kristine Argallon! everdearest idol!
Peterson Cheng! chinchan...astig gyud ka..
Harold Edralin! go harold!
Kareen Jane Guinayon! kring-kring...so happy for you kring
Lovely Macario! go lovely...
Joseph Mutia!davao ta seph?..hehe
Necel Oclarit! tatay, congrats!
congrats to all of you guys!
by the way...inaayos ko pa tong blogsite ko..hehe
i'm still trying to fix my blogsite...
i want to customize this myself and i'm still trying to figure out what it'll look like and how i'm gonna do it! hehe
how about you...have you experienced revertigo?=)
i was cleaning our room when i found this dvd of hayley's concert in NZ and i can't help myself but fall for her voice. gosh...i have goosebumps everytime i hear her sing. very angelic, sweet and so pleasing to the ears. check this video of hers and tell me what you think...
Wednesday noon, I received an unexpected call from someone who sounds very familiar – it was Aaron, my used-to-be regular caller and one of my best friends in high school…
Yan: Kuya aa! Himala…kamusta?...
Aaron: Invite unta taka yan sa bday sa akong anak….
…time flies so fast…memories of my high school life is still so clear in my mind and that one call from kuya aa made me realize how things have changed big time! I can’t believe how situations have changed since the day I left high school. Some are married, some have their own kids, some are hurrying up to go and find greener pastures…gone are the days when all we’re worried about is the deadline of the research, the math quiz, the answers to the advance chem exam, the group projects in science, dance presentations for PE…gone are the days when “slipper game-turned SG tournament is the highlight of our day…gone are the days when we don’t really have to worry about life and future…gone are the simple days when we can simply be kids anytime we want.
Friday:
I met with jaylyn so we could find a gift for aaron’s baby and eventually go to the party together. We were in Trendline looking for the best gift that hopefully the parents would like (lol), going to the counter we saw Ella, looking like an executive with her company uniform while giving instructions to the cashier…
Jaylyn: ella…abas (that gay linggo again)
Executive look gyud…
Yan: wow, ella…sosyal! Maulaw man sad mi nimu oi…
(chat.chat.chat…-we told her that we’re looking for a gift)
Jaylyn: discount dayon madam
Yan: bitaw ell
Ella: (pointing to the cashier) tagai sila discount, ingna sa ako lang…
Wow…someone who used to be meek in the class is now giving instructions like she owns the place (so happy for you ell!)
On our way to the party venue, jaylyn and I talked about her job and how our friends have grown much over the years. Jaylyn was the first friend I had in high school. I got close to her because we like the same things…the color yellow, the sunshine colgne and some tv shows. Even with time and distance separating us, it still surprises me how every time we get to see each other I never run out of things to tell her and that even if we have changed, there are still things that connect us (it was the color yellow that started our friendship, and now it’s our love for the shade of purple/lavender that would probably continue to bind us!haha). We realized how people have grown so much. How a lot of lives have changed over the pat five years. Every get together, the topics would either be jobs, who got married, who’s with who, where is he/she…though there are still the occasional “kulitan” (one thing that I hope would not changed)…everyone has indeed gone to different directions. It makes me think, how much of me is still the same and how much is different?...Have I grown? (in height and in wisdom..lol)…
I have always been scared with changes, it’s always a challenge for me to accept change but seeing my friends and how happy most of them are with the changes and the growth they’re experiencing in their lives…then I guess it’s a testimony that changes can be good and that I should deal with it positively. I just hope that the friendship we all planted and nurtured for four years in ct hi will continue to grow. (corny…hehe but I mean it!) =)
Miss you all pips…SG na pud!
leaves are coming down
one more year's come and gone
and nothing's changed at all
wasn't i suppose to be someone
who can face the things that i've been running from
let me feel
i don't care if break down
let me fall
even if i hit the ground
and if i
cry a little
die a little
at least i know i lived, just a little...
i've become much too good at being invincible
i'm an expert at keep it safe and keep it cool
but i swear, this isn't who i'm meant to be
i refused to let my life roll all over me
- bathany joy lenz
how was your first 9 months of 2008?
i'm not the type of person makes "my list of new year's resolution" and religiously follow them all but i think of things that i wanna do for the coming year. i believe it is innate for us to desire for improvements... to better ourselves... to find our purpose and somehow fulfill them. for this year, i believe i did achieved some of them; i finished my undergraduate degree (hopefully i can enroll for graduate school this coming semester), i'm starting again to take part in church activities and hopefully find my ministry. but still it's not enough.
i know i'm destined to continually think big, do more and be better. i'm fully aware that God gave me knowledge and wisdom because He's simply generous, because He wants to use me and because He needs His army in advancing His kingdom. same goes for everyone else, God gave us talents to be used, we all have potentials waiting to be unleashed however if we let the demons within (insecurities, pride, self-pity...etc) beat us then the world will just continue to turn while we rot with all out potentials locked within us. sayang di ba?!
life is too short to waste...there is so much we can learn and do with it. if being scared is the reason why we don't move forward then it's not worth it. why be afraid of rejection? of failure?... these are just small things compared to what good things we can experience in this life. and besides, if God is with us...we are rest assured that we are taken care of...right?


