i saw my crush today! *kilig*
i feel like a teenager having my dear diary moment. why not, this is just the fourth time i've seen him since i met him.
1st: may 2004, summer youth camp
2nd: april 2005, church anniversary
3rd: august 2008, at his work
4th: september 2008, his work again
...Yes,i keep track of the times when i experience "butterflies in the stomach in a frenzy" - at keast this is how i can best describe the kind of "kilig" i feel in certain situations like seeing this crush of mine.
i know it's kind of crazy but this is me...sometimes i even find myself weird. if there's one thing i'm sure about myself, it would definitely be the freedom i give myself to express my thoughts and emotions. it could be by sharing to another person, by talking to myself, by writing it in any paper i find at the moment and now by blogging. anyhow, allow me to share the feeling...
i first met "crush" during a summer camp and it was a "like at first sight". i don't think he even remembers me but i don't care as long as i know there's someone who can make my heart skip a beat. i really don't know much about him except that he has a really good voice and he's a matured christian though i would bet that he's also a really good person. =)
when i saw him last month, my jaw literally dropped. i was surprised to see him again and feel that *kilig* again. not more than a month after, i saw him again and you guessed it right *kilig* again.
crazy right!? nothing really special happened but i'm feeling like someone being proposed to. i wonder what would happen if he smiled at me or talked to me!?!...will i faint? will i be able to smile back? will be able to talk back? or will i just make a fool of myself?...
now i ask myself, is it normal for girls to feel this way?...and at my age, am i being immature?...
i'm a member of the NBSB society, a single since birth for 22 years thus if you ask, have i ever been in love in a romantic way?...not yet. i tried to open up my heart but i ended up hurting myself so to spare my delicate heart, i decided to close it and wait until the time God will finally reveal my Mr. Right.
yes, im a believer of desitny, of God's will and of soulmates. i believe that courtship is the best way to get to know other person.(way to go Joshua Harris!) i can even be the poster image of a modern daagang filipina except that i talk a lot.lol nah...let's just say that i'm an idealist when it comes to the matters of the heart. but it doesn't mean i'm manhid...of course like everyone else i'm capable of liking, admiring and being infatuated with the oppsoite sex. i just know my limitations and i try my best to control my emotions. anyway i'm not in a huury naman to find my life partner.
with regards to "crush" i'm not in any way expecting that we'd be friends or for anything to happen. in a way i'm pleased that at least i'm still capable of feeling all *kilig* over someone else. and what's great about this..for the first time i was able to keep his identity all to myself...more reason to enjoy the *kilig*. (yup ganito ako kababaw!haha)...basta right now i'm just contented with the * kilig* (even if i appear silly)
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i think i knew this guy?! Einstein fellow?
No Boyfriend Since Birth Member - owhh? Soon you'll be out in that group. hehe...
I Am Downloader said...
September 20, 2008 7:52 AM
hehehe... immature?! i don’t think so.. who said "kilig" are for teenagers only?hmmp!
well, that what it says for those singles out there! heheh.. its nice to be single, take time for flirting..hahahaha.
but if your in love, it talks on commitment.. Brain equals Heart.. And more conversations ( a life track good conversation, just imagine the time comes that you and your partner are oldies na, make sense?).
Joshua harris (a kisss dating goodbye).. I don’t want to follow his advice, ill just make my own way..hehehe.. I don’t want to set standars, if I do ill break it. (kung mkabasa mn gud ko sa iya book te yan kay murag mgset ko rules but i cant keep it)
As long as my faith and direction is with God above, ill be still.
go far beyond your ego!
ishi said...
September 23, 2008 9:35 PM
yanex said...
October 4, 2008 10:55 PM
hi baby i!
nice comment...
you're really mature in this field ha...murag ikaw ang ate...=)
i agree, it's really about commitment that is why i'm so careful when it comes to this matter...maybe growing up in the kind of family i have and having attended love and courtship seminars in our church had great impact on my views about relationship. so very welcome kaayo sa ako ang mga words ni joshua harris..hehe
pero i know you're heading in the right direction man pud...like you said...always have your faith and direction guided by God!
yanex said...
October 4, 2008 11:04 PM